I've typed and deleted this so many times because i feel stupid knowing you won't read this because you don't seem to think I'm interesting. And you've heard it all before. Yesterday, was a lonely day. (And if you go, I want to go with you. And if you die, I want to die with you... Please take my hand and walk away)!

When I met you, all I could think about was the first messages you sent me. " Have you had your ass ate before?) And the first song you sent me, overrated by Strawberry Girls ft Kurt Travis aka daddy. You and I were the perfect power couple, on ke Jackie and Hyde or like Persephone and Hades. I didn't think I love anyone again after my ex. I DIDNT WANT TO LOVE AGAIN. But those wild ass curls, laugh, smile, body, eyes, long ass toes, knowledge, personality, sexy dad bod, music taste... everything pulled me in knowing damn well you would only break my heart. We are toxic, you are right. But for me, it was like toxic but in a good way. Before all the betrayal, I thought you were my person. I still believe you are my person. But you, changed. And I gave you everything, even though you lied to me about everything. You are hella dumb, you were fucking me, I dreamt of everything you did before you did it. You'd reassure me that I was crazy then I almost kms.

I am so lost. I don't know what to do with my life. I am lost in translation again. And this time, I'm not coming back. I lost everything trying to keep you. I gave my all and you didn't even want me. That would kill anyone. Too hear you talk about yourself and how you wanted someone and this and that. Nigga, I only have eyes for you. I am so proud, I haven't self harmed but what I chose was worse. I am slowing decaying and ruining my life because I was supposed to be your wife. My life has no meaning without love. M heart I stone. I feel so bad for whoever tries to love me next, they won't be you so they will never be good enough. Everytime I tried to leave you pulled me back then would do the most fucked up shit and blame me . So tell me why I miss you, tell me my soul mate why I can't sleep, eat, function because I gave my worth to you. For you to say, you want other things. I submitted to a man who helped me back to myself snd tried to give you everything. And you still weren't help,? My healing is going to take time. I told you I'd be better when I old. But in our world of two, you only have room for you.....

Love your favorite mistake