I’m glad I’ve done what I’ve done not for the fact that you don’t love me like you said you do but for the fact that I now know I deserve what I want but I have to work for it first and I’m not ready. I’m not ready to be a wife and live with someone day in and day out and love them for who they are unconditionally because I need to learn how to love myself that way first. I expected you to love me like it was your job because you didn’t have one otherwise and besides the fighting you did quite well I got foot rubs and coffee dinner sometimes it was more than my exs did for me so thanks for your time and I’m sorry I couldn’t make yours more enjoyable. However the words you have spoken to me over the years have really seem to kind of stick anyway. I think you meant it for helpful advice but it still hurts you know? I miss our tender moments and things of that nature but I don’t know if I even remember how to hold another human being properly beside our children. These men think I am on the hunt for a man, my bad I like sex as much as the next person sorry I’ve gained the major s l I t reputation apparently. It’s funny seeing how I don’t fuck everything that walks. I have kinks and needs to be fulfilled at some point lately I’ve just been doing myself in fantasy land I feel so uncomfortable around people I can’t come out of my shell or enjoy myself honestly sex seems more of a chore with all those sent intended to hurt me in their enjoyable pleasures. What is love? Don’t hurt me baby don’t hurt me no more …………..