I’m in an open relationship, and one of my partners I’ve been with over a year almost two I think? I don’t really know, anyway for a while our relationship felt really rocky for me at least and she did something that I felt was really fucked up and I was gonna break up with her but I can’t even bring myself to hold that anger any more cuz it’s been a while and she did apologize and she’s been doing a lot better in our relationship I guess but I just don’t feel the same anymore I don’t think I ever will and I feel bad because she still loves me I think but for me it feels so faded and lost even though I’m not upset anymore I just don’t feel love for her, nor do I feel loved … I’ve tried to communicate this but it’s so hard she won’t really let me break up and it takes so much energy to have conversations like that so if I’m not currently upset about something I don’t have that energy