Please prepare yourself to read a very long post, because I feel like I need to put almost everything out there so you can get an idea of who I am and because Im looking for compatibility. I like to write a lot so Im not sure how long this will be, so If you dont like reading a lot about someone, then we arent compatible.

Im from Mexico, 35 years old and Im a lesbian. I think my soulmate can be anywhere in the world, so I will not limit myself. Im looking for someone who doesnt care about distances either. If 2 people are meant to be, it will happen.

Im old enough to have tried a lot of things and now Im sure of what works for me and Im not willing to compromise my peace over someone who is not what Im looking for. Im very disrespectfully myself that I want to repel anyone whos not supposed to be around me.

For me a relationship is something very sacred and special. I have learned you really can tell how much you love yourself by the partner you've chosen and I love myself too much to accept something less than amazing. I want to be calm in love, stable in love, understood in love, safe in love.

I have always known Im lesbian since I was a little girl, I have never been with a man and I have never doubted or regret my lesbianism. I grew up Catholic but since I was a teen I knew I didn’t agree with a lot of things and since then I decided I would be like my own kind of religion but I just say Im catholic to everyone because Im lazy. I think religion is something very personal and I definitely dont push it to everyone, I dont really talk about it, but if you wanna ask more you can.

I graduated university from a very difficult career that I choose by mistake and I didn’t like, so once I finished I worked a bit in that field and I confirmed I didn’t like it, so I just do something different now.

Im a demisexual lesbian, which means I need to get to know you before being attracted to you, I need to form a connection for me to start liking someone. Also Im celibate by choice because I don’t do hookups or even kiss someone if I know theyre not what Im looking for.

Im a very dominant person in everyway and I tend to crash with other dominant people, my character is kinda strong, so I match better with someone who is more submissive.

I like to very very honest and direct, I never lie. Im a hopeless romantic, I love hard, Im very consistent, I will never leave you wondering about anything, I have never ghosted anyone, I also have never cheated, even if it was just like a situationship. I like talking to only one person and putting all my attention in one person. Im very excited to the idea of growing old together with someone and keep choosing that person forever. My words follow my actions. Im not friends with exes or situationships or entertain people who like me more than a friend, I also dont stalk those people in any way, I retire my whole energy from them and its like they never existed.

I recognize the value of a person since the beginning, Im not one of those that only realize what they had when they lost it.

I like to think Im a very emotionally intelligent person and have a lot of affectionate responsibility.

I believe that if youre in a relationship, you face life together, not separate and not against each other, you need to think for the 2 in the relationship not only in yourself, which I think a lot of people dont do because theyre selfish.

Also I believe in a relationship where theres no insults and cussing each other, I would never insult someone Im in a relationship with and I ask for the same, of course there can be banter and joking, but Im talking about disagreements or when someone gets mad, I have a policy of 0 insults, if you get mad you can take time for yourself, but Im one of those people that will never get on an argument without solving it, I always wanna talk about it.

With me you will never have to question my loyalty to you, or to question anything to be honest. Im not hesitant or indecisive, I will make you feel loved like never before, seen, respected, desired and safe. Your opinions and thoughts will be cherished, valued, respected and acknowledged, I dont brush things off and I also ask for the same.

I cant stand when people like to do the bare minimum in a relationship, with me you have to match my energy, Im a very passionate person when it comes to love. Also I need someone with my communication style, I dont want anyone avoidant or someone who can go days without talking to me, no one is too busy for someone they care about, if you dont have consistency and integrity with me, then we arent compatible.

Im the kind of person that if my girlfriend dont like something or dont want me to do something, I dont do it, or if they want me to do something I do it.

Love isnt enough for a relationship to last, you need connection, intimacy, safety, accountability, vulnerability and trust.

I also wanna ask for someone who have healed their mental problems or working on healing them, because I have put so much effort in healing for everything that has happened to me and I continue to put effort in being the best version of me for me and for anyone who wants to love me. I ask for this because some people dont even put effort on their mental health and dont even want to heal, I have learned that someone who doesnt want to get help, is someone Im not compatible with. Also some people believe a good relationship needs "drama" and feel bored when they enter a normal loving relationship, Im also not compatible with that type of person.

The difference between happy couples and the unhappy ones is that happy couples are kinder when they speak to each other, they treat each other more gently without criticism or sarcasm. You need mutual respect, consideration, affection and treating each other in the ways we feel close and valued the most, having empathy in our communication. I wont nurture a relationship with someone who avoid emotions and find them exhausting. I learned to invest in the person that also invests in me.

Im femme but kinda masc, I dont know if theres a term for that maybe chapstick?, I have long hair, I have 0 style, clothes give me anxiety tbh and I just wear every day scrubs for work and when I go out Im mostly in pants and a hoodie, I don’t wear makeup most of the days, some days I do but I love makeup and painting my nails, I wear short nails but I like long nails on a partner, if theyre into that. Im plus size right now, I used to be skinny and since I have some problems with how I look (because of some trauma). I decided maybe I just wanted to gain weight and look different so right now Im chubby and I dont like it lmaoooo I wanna lose the weight. I wanna be clear that I dont have low self esteem, I have learned to really love myself with therapy, meds and just over the years experiences, I have learned to know my worth, just have some problems with my looks still.

I have autism and adhd, so Im very introverted and very antisocial. I don’t like having friends because I just don’t think about them and I don’t see friends as necessary, I know neurotypical people like friends. I do have a gay best friend that has autism too, so he understands me and we talk and hangout like once a month and that work for us, also I consider best friends some of my family, So I do have people to talk. I say this because this could be a turn off for someone people and I completely understand if Im not someones type and I do wanna clarify that all this is different with a person I like as a partner, to me once I like/love someone, they’re everything to me (in a healthy way). According to that personality test Im a INTJ. Also I have a high pitched voice, I say this because apparently some people like raspy voices? and I dont wanna disappoint lmaoo

I work but to he honest, I dont like working or studying, I said Im very honest and this is a trait of mine that will turn off some, because some people love working and want their partner to have work goals and all that stuff, but I wasnt born to do labor lmaooo I still have to work because I need to exist and this economy is hard but If could stop working, I would do it in a heart beat. Im fine and happy with my low wage job and I dont mind if you love working or not working, just that you respect my way of thinking.

I dont drink, I have never gotten drunk, I dont smoke, I dont do drugs, I take meds for my mental health but since I have gotten so much better Im tapering off right now to see how it feels and I also take cbd for anxiety.

My favorite hobby is to watch movies and tv shows, I love movies so so much, I like every genre, so I would appreciate someone who likes to watch a lot of things with me and dont get tired of it. My favorite movie is Titanic because of the love story, not because of the tragedy. I have other comfort movies that I can watch a million times and never get tired like: Miss Congeniality, Pitch Perfect 1, The Twilight Saga, My best friends wedding, You've got mail, 500 days of Summer, Boys dont cry, Mean Girls, Love Actually, I have more but I dont wanna make this longer.

My favorite tv shows: Friends, Will & Grace, Vikings, Orange is the new Black, The L word, The Handmaid's Tale, Discovery ID, Ghost Hunting shows, Game of Thrones,House of the Dragon, Dark Angel, Wentworth, Glee, Gilmore Girls, bad and tacky tv shows, Family Guy, Antique and restoring tv shows, Seinfeld, American Dad, Drag Race etc

My favorite music, I like listening everything but I do have some favorites: Blackpink, Twice, Britney Spears, Oasis, Lady Gaga, Adele, Lana del Rey, Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, Red Velvet, Itzy, Fifth Harmony, Miley Cyrus, Hilary Duff, BTS and lot more.

Also I like to share things like tiktoks, memes or whatever random stuff, so I hope to find someone who likes that. I can sometimes have a dark sense of humor, so Im not compatible with someone who gets offended by everything or freaked out.

I like traveling and discovering new places, I like discovering new foods, going to concerts even tho I dont like big crowds, I like amusement parks, going to casinos (for fun and only spending change money that I dont mind losing, I know how to manage money very well), going to museums, zoos, arcades, going to antique stores, thrift stores, metal detecting, other than that I really like staying home, I dont like going to parties, bars or reunions of any type, so if you like to party I think we would not be compatible.

Im looking for someone very specific and someone who is basically the same as me, if she doesnt exist Im ok with staying single forever because Im not gonna allow anyone to take me back to a place that I fought to break free from, I ask for someone who is already like that, Im not trying to change anyone. I don’t wanna settle for anyone and I don’t want anyone to settle for me either. I will just write the specific woman Im looking for:

• cis woman, 100% lesbian someone who isnt confused about her sexuality, no men attraction, not self hating lesbian or feel guilt over being a lesbian, ready to settle down, femme, girly, bottom, submissive, monogamous (wanting to be with only 1 person forever, no having fantasies about threesomes etc), from 26 to 34 years old, introverted, short (under 5'5) because Im 5'1, honest, loyal, no kids, know how to communicate very well, romantic, kinky, clingy, know how to make conversation, emotional intelligent, you know affective responsibility, know how to make me feel wanted and cared for, respectful of my religion and religions in general (you dont have to be religious but not talk shit on my beliefs or try to stop me from believing in what I want), not have exes or situationships as friends or entertain people who like them more than a friend, not have a person who "got away" and you still think about them, I want someone who can let go.
• Not into astrology, magic or tarot, not into illegal drugs or be an alcoholic, not being a flirt with other people while in a relationship or someone who looks for external validation, no face tattoos, knows how to take accountability, likes to give reassurance, consistent, homebody, like watching every type of movies and tv shows. I despise cheaters so if you have cheated as a consenting adult, we are not compatible.

BUT WAIT, THERES MORE!

• I dont know if I should include this because maybe it makes me sound crazy but I dont want people to waste their time messaging me, while Im looking for someone really specific. So Im looking what I said above but also I have been having dreams with a girl I dont know, in my dreams shes the love of my life, I have never seen that girl and I can only tell a few features of her? like the rest of her is blurry, she has blue or green eyes, skinny and short, Im not sure of the color of her hair, I think she has longish hair and I cant tell more features, so Im looking for her. I understand I might sound insane for looking for a person that literally doesnt exist, but thats what Im looking for right now. If you are like this and happen to be compatible with me, I guess you should message me.

Ok so this is everything I wanna say, please be a real person I will ask for social media and you to prove youre real, I can do the same.

Thank you for reading all of this and Im sorry if Im all over the place.

Im gonna find you soulmate and I will create a wonderful and beautiful love reality for both of us