Hi there, this will be a bit long. I appreciate you reading it all :)

What I’m Looking For:

This is kind of a weird request. I ask please don’t be mean about it, because I’m really in a vulnerable and sensitive place 😭

I have always been a person really loves love and always wanted to find my forever. I have always dreamed of someone I can give all of me to. To be fully known and understood by someone, and to fully know someone. Someone to shower in love and receive that same love back. To always be there for someone, and them always there for me. I believed soulmates are real. The definition of a hopeless romantic lol.

But recently the past few months, I have just lost my spark for love. I think all the past hurt has finally really gotten to me. I’ve been very jaded. I have absolutely no energy to engage with anyone, it’s like I shut down on people immediately. I’m even ghosting, which is so out of character for me. It’s very hard for me to talk to anyone new. I’m reclusive right now.

Despite that, I still long for connection and love deeply. So my request is just for one patient person to work with me. Like don’t allow me to make an excuse to leave or ghost you please. I need someone kind of firm and will just tell me I can’t leave lol. I really have so much love to give, I just need someone to wake that spark back up in me.

Only message if you want something serious.

A little bit about me.

I’m a INTJ 5w4, and personality wise, I’m like 2 different people lol. Emotional and logical. I can be really sweet and wholesome. Supportive, the kind of person that will always be there for you. I’m also extremely affectionate both physically and with words. I’ll always talk about how much you mean to me :) But I also can be a quite overly logical jerk lol. Best of both worlds I guess. When I’m comfortable I can be really goofy and loud, and give crackhead energy, but in the beginning I’m really quiet and reserved. I try to be positive and nonjudgmental, while also being very strongly opinionated XD.

I also can be pretty dark. I have a good mixture of being wholesome and dark lol. It’s weird

I’m a contradiction but I love that about myself. You shouldn’t message me if you’re easily scared away, I am a pretty eccentric person generally lol I can ramble about weird/random stuff. And talk in a kind of unfiltered way. I don’t want to have to hold that back lmao.

Important tidbits. * I have a fear of abandonment * I am obsessive and clingy when I fall for someone. (Not in a crazy way) lol * I am left leaning on most things. * Strictly Monogamous * Agnostic atheist. * I have BPD, we can talk about what that entails * In college for accounting. * I have a pretty dark humor XD * Very introverted

Looks wise: I’m black, 5’2, VERY masc presenting, I have a short haircut and dress masc. I am def plus size , but definitely not like huge lol and currently losing weight as well :)

Interests: Gaming, true crime docs, horror/thriller movies, I like all kinds of music. Particularly R&B, rock, and Kpop XD. I watch a lot of YouTube and tiktok. I’m kind of huge homebody, wanting to get out more and have new experiences.

Who I’m Looking For:

Looks don’t matter much to me. You can be fem or masc.

Personality wise: I like a lot of different personalities. Some important traits though would be emotional intelligence and caring. Also having a good logical side is important. As I said above I’m affectionate and clingy so I’d match best with someone also like that lol. You can be extroverted or introverted. Ambivert vibes are the best though.

Age 22 to 35. I am from Chicago in the US, but I would love to talk to women from anywhere. I’m open to relocate anywhere gay ma rriage is legal lol

Thank you for reading all of this. If you’re interested please message me a little about you. :)

As long as this post is up you can message me,