I keep forgetting that I turned 32 this year. Is this what it's like - getting old? You forget what age you are and feel confused and start counting? I hope not.

I don't exactly know what I'm looking for but it wouldn't hurt to get to know more people. It may sound very crazy but I like people. If you are gay, bonus points. Yes. I actually don't have many gay friends, so there is that. I'm a late bloomer.

I'm from Germany. I'm also weird.

What makes me weird? It's hard for me to say because it seems so normal to me. I guess I like feeling things. I do not have any regrets in life and see each mistake (yes, ex-partners too) as a lesson. I will be stupid enough to repeat it or I will learn from it. I also don't worry or stress over things I can't change.

What else?

I'm not a fan of writing a long list of what you should be offering to me. I'm putting myself out there, want to be vulnerable and get to know someone. I want to share everything. I want to offer myself and who am I to write a long list of what you should be offering to me? I'm the one posting on reddit. As you can see, not a big fan.

What. Else.

I like feeling the wind. I like the feeling when you like someone and you want to know more about them. I like that first sip of coffee in the morning that resembles 12 wonderful therapy sessions. I like seeing nice random people in public, smiling at me or making small talk for no reason.

I find it hard to connect. I can't exactly say why. I don't have hate in me nor do I want to. I find it tiring. I like learning new things, talking talking talking. I love experiencing new things, new feelings. I live for it. I don't mind making mistakes, I don't mind being spontaneous, doing new things. I find it important to live the life you have. You live your whole life being careful and watching yourself - what does it bring you? If I'm going to live this life, I want to live it with everything I have. I'm not going to shave my head, right now. That doesn't mean I shouldn't live a little.

What do I like? I unfortunately started cycling (more) which is.. kind of getting expensive. I like coffee and make a pour-over every morning. Yes, every morning. I like reading books, mostly classics but I give newer novels a chance. I'm open to new things. I play a bit of fps games, not too much I would say.

My god, I'm open to many things. I like doing new things. I like movies/tv series. I like coffee shops, eating healthy and.. I may stress eating around the weekend. Hey, I'm not perfect. I can't eat a protein/carb/fat rich meal every day. My humor is dry yet.. dark. I like getting out of my comfort zone. I know it's going to be scary at first but I like.. feeling things and growing as a person.

I want to have silly yet meaningful conversation. I want to know about your deepest fears, that one embarrassing moment in middle school.. that you still remember because it was so so terrible. I want to laugh. I want to cry. I want to live. I'm not scared of getting old, I'm scared of living an unlived life. That doesn't mean I want to run outside with only underwear, it means.. saying the things that matter, to me.

I want to say how I feel. I want to experience things. I'm not afraid of pain nor am I afraid to tell my most embarrassing moments like.. I don't know right now. There are many, alright? If you talk a lot, bonus points. If you want an adventure (I don't like that word), I'm here for it. If you are from germany.. bonus points. I would really like to connect fully and speak my mind and hope you will do it too.

Want to know a secret? I went to the states for 10 days and came back 5 kg heavier.

pictures: https://imgur.com/a/mu1bEjO