I think the title is pretty self explanatory. I am a bigger girl, 5’2 and about 170lbs. Before the pandemic hit, I was probably about 119 pounds, I gained a good amount of weight during Covid and it’s been a struggle to keep it off ever since. I’ve been really self conscious about my weight lately and it’s made me really anxious about dating other girls and the thought of having sex is mortifying. I’m 21 and in college, I’ve been out of the dating scene since I was 19 and I desperately want to meet new people and have a few casual relationships, or a long term one.

My biggest problem is I just don’t feel attractive enough to be dating or having sex with girls. I’m a pretty masculine person, and I feel like bigger masc lesbians are a huge turn off for most lesbians, especially those close to my age. I never see any positive representation of plus sized lesbians either. The dating/hookup scene is already small enough being a lesbian in a red state, let alone a fat lesbian in a red state.

I’ve been doing my best to lose the extra weight I gained over the pandemic, but it is hard when I’m a full time student and working 2 jobs just to afford school. I work out when I can, and I’m really cautious about what I eat. I refuse to eat candy or anything sweet and I won’t drink anything other than water or tea.

Does anyone else have this issue? I’m kind of at a loss here…