i just want to start and thank each one of you who took time out of their day to read and reply to my post! it means so much to me that there are people who care and love to help others and be there for them even if they’re strangers. you guys made me feel welcomed and seen.

i also want to thank you for helping me make a choice. after a long day of considering what i want and talking with my mother and grandparents about my choices, i have made one which is to leave unfortunately.

a future here is not promised and it is best to leave young than to leave when i am older. which is why i officially am taking german classes starting from tomorrow and I have applied to do the IELTS exam. I will be leaving to Germany since it is the best for immigration and studies.

i cannot thank you guys enough for everything you have told me and helped me in and i will never forget how you made me feel so welcomed. thank you for your kind words and generosity and I will be replying back to your comments right now (very sorry for the late replies!)

and i am so sorry that i worried some of you due to my last sentence which was “i’d rather die”. i won’t deny my mental health is not the best, and i have been struggling with suicidal thoughts since childhood but i guarantee you i would never ever harm myself! i have to be a great example for people, and i would never leave my mother alone in life for she has fought enough for me to live a happy life. thank you so much for worrying about me, it means the world for me.

lastly and again, thank you a lot for making me feel welcomed and seen. i could have never asked for something better. thank you, thank you, and thank you.