I was 9 days sober but earlier thus morning at my restaurant job, I was offered a couple hits of the pen and now I don’t know what path to take. In these 9 days I’ve felt unwarranted bad emotions and anger toward the people around me. When my friends want to hang out or something I feel like I can’t get my mind out of negativity and I’ll just ruin it. I find myself asking whether it’s okay to be mad at a person or about a situation after it happens or if it’s just the irritability and I should let it pass. Weed made my anxiety go away and allowed me to (feel normal) enjoy social interaction and not overthink little things. I feel as though I need to talk to someone but for so long I thought I was weak and not good enough. I feel selfish and just like a bad person in general, even if Im trying be the opposite. I just want to be a good person and not bring people down. Even typing this, I feel nervous and lost trying to find the right things to say and remember. I feel uncomfortable anxiety talking to my parents, friends, anybody. I’m just uncomfortable with myself and everything I do. My moral compass is all fucked up, I’m not as empathetic, I used to be a person that someone could come talk to, and I cared and listened but I’m starting to care less. I’ve typed a jumbled mess and even when someone responds I know I haven’t provided enough context for someone to fully understand. I’m lost