Hello everyone, you can call me Roots ✌🏼 I found out about this group from one youtube video where basically someone shared tips how to stop smoking weed. And now I’m here and I’m feeling blessed that this group exists. Feels like what I’ve been needing for a long time. Here’s my story: I never did drugs, just drank some alcohol when I was a teen and in uni, most of the time I knew my limits with alcohol. But with weed is different, I started smoking couple years ago just occasionally when my boyfriend introduced me with it (he smokes on and off for about 10 years). At the beginning I felt that I had control and smoked only like 2-3 times a month, when I felt that I can allow myself to wind down and relax. It was like this up until this May when I moved in with my boyfriend with 2 more roommates who are smoking weed everyday. And it got me. I started to smoke every single day and feeling super grumpy and irritated the day after. On those mornings I would tell myself no more weed - I need to recover...until my roommates or bf would start smoking and giving me a joint. I feel like I’m in some sort of a trap, that I can’t just simply stop, it makes me lazy (I don’t have ambitions or meaningful goals) and more anxious in the morning, sometimes I get panic attacks. I don’t blame my roommates or my bf, because they choose what’s best for them and it’s totally fine with me. What’s not fine - that I don’t have discipline and self control. I’m not even a cigarette smoker, I never was. But with weed it is so different. I like being high and listening to music and feeling it or I got over some deeply traumas of my life and got some clarity about my personality, I connected with my friends, I like watching movies while being high, but...It’s time to change. My body is screaming for a change. I want to be outgoing and busy person that I was before and just do meaningful stuff, be healthy and become a better version of myself. And I feel that weed is stoping me from doing that. Yesterday was my first day while being sober. Yesterday I felt so shitty after smoking hash the day before yesterday. I looked in the mirror and I saw myself lifeless - just existing. Puffy eyes, greyish tone skin, breakouts on the face, coughing, with a huge headache. I felt that I’m out of control of my life. I can’t do this anymore. The change is needed. Me smoking weed - is not me. And I feel a bit ashamed of myself that I let myself to betray this way and just neglect myself. So today is my 2nd day without weed, I’m going to the party this evening where there will probably be weed, but I feel confident about it. Thank you for reading this, I really appreciate it 💕