Hey /leaves!

So, I never thought I'd be writing this post, but I'm 1 year clean! (I'm not actually sure on the exact day, but I know it was either this week, or sometime next!)

I never thought that I'd have the willpower to make it this far, but after 4 years of daily smoking, I've finally made it past the 1 year mark!

Looking back, I honestly find it crazy how much of a rut I was in because of weed. Smoking multiple dabs after work, fucking with Xanax because the highs weren't good enough anymore, not going to family events, losing contact with friends and scraping the bowls of my bongs when I was out because I couldn't bear going to bed sober.

What a year it's been! Don't get me wrong, not everything has been fixed in my life since quitting, but it was the first step for me to make my life better for myself. I still have my bad days, however I don't even contemplate smoking anymore, despite my housemate continuing to be a daily smoker and being around it on a daily basis.

I've started looking after myself again, dating, reconnecting with old friends, and I'm in the process of creating a startup, all things I never would have been able to do last year.

If you're still in the early days, it's tough, but I promise you it gets better. I think the thing I've learnt is that overall, weed in itself isn't bad or even addictive, it's the fact it's so habit forming which is the killer. Once you start having smoking routines, your whole life (at least mine) revolves around that, and your start prioritising weed over everything else, leading you to stop caring about more important things in your life.

Having said that, weed did bring a lot of positives into my life, but it's all about moderation. Who know's once I'm comfortable with where I am in life, I'll probably smoke on the odd occasion, but at this point, I'm just happy to be sober a while longer.

Also, never beat yourself up if you relapse, it happened to me on two previous attempts. Just pick yourself up and start again. If you want it enough, you'll be weed free in no time.

Good luck :)