As the title says, I bought a 10mg the seltzer can today that I was going to drink but as I was walking outside I just threw it away. I am about to reach a total of 2 months without the.

I miss weed. I feel some sense of clarity that I was strong enough to throw the can away, even though I just wasted $15. But I felt like weed helped me so much. I felt like weed helped me see things clearly, be more creative, spot details I missed, help me workout, helped me focus, helped me recover (stretching), helped me understand things better. I felt more in tune high. I miss it. When I threw the can away I was kinda upset like damn.. this might be it. But it was the hardest thing to do that's why I did it.

Sighs. I feel like I'll never get to my level of creativity, focus, confidence, and tolerate pain the same way when I was high. I understand why they call weed medicine. It truly does feel like it. I felt like a normal person high. When I'm not.. l'm just here.. existing. Weed makes life feel like there's purpose for all this and I'm just overall very intentional high. Sighsss.

Im at a Dominican restaurant now. Gonna try ar enjoy this food. Would love to chat with some people. That may be feeling what