I quit from Oct 25th 2023 until May 20th of this year, it was a very tough road but it was so worth it.

On May 20th I reluctantly took a puff, that one puff led to me smoking from May 20th until September 15th of this year...I just smoked every morning, throughout the day and at night.

On Monday September 16th I quit again, the first couple days I was constipated and nauseous in the morning...but by day four I was going to a concert, I made it about ten days before taking a very tiny puff...so tiny that I didn't feel a thing...just regret, so I restarted the calendar and made it three days until yesterday when I loaded a bigger bowl, smoked it all and I got a pretty big buzz but I still had regret, as the day went on felt the comedown and I just didn't like it at all...once again, I restarted the calendar.

As I type this I am now 22hrs and 50mins into it again but it's not bothering me, I am just trying to deal with boredom in the best ways possible.

I am just wanting to get use to being sober because I was high constantly from age 16 until 32, so far I enjoy being clear headed and tackling stress instead of ignoring it.

If I do give in I am trying to not beat myself up over it, but I do not want to smoke in the morning or at night, or when there are things that need done and especially not everyday or every week, just the thought of that makes me think of the withdrawals that come along with daily usage.

What helps me when I give is the grounded app, it helps me document what I am feeling and also keeps track of how long I've stayed sober.