Let me start this post out by saying I’ve been a chronic smoker going on a little over 4 years now.

Life doesn’t excite me anymore I’m doing the same thing day after day and I’m sick of it. Not only that I’ve noticed that I can’t recall simple words anymore or even able to explain myself without my words getting jumbled together. When I’m hanging out with my friends I’m there but I’m no longer present with them. I have to use it to eat, and I’ve convinced myself I need it for tv to be interesting. It has consumed my entire life and I want out of the cycle

I’m just afraid I’m not gonna be able to stop because I initially started because of my back pain (I’m in a wheelchair) but it’s gotten to the point where I just use my back pain as an excuse, yes my back hurts really fucking bad but that isn’t the main reason I use anymore….. I just like to get high

Y’all wish me luck I’m going to need it