Last time I tried I went a month without cannabis. I felt extremely defeated afterward because I didn't notice any differences in my mood, sleep, energy, or motivation at all. It's just me that's broken.

This didn't happen last time so it's likely just a coincidence but last night I had a dream that wasn't a nightmare for the first time in years. I always have horrible, violent, traumatizing nightmares that make me try to avoid dreaming altogether. Still I'm really hoping stopping does help this time.

I don't use any drugs other than cannabis and I seem to use it to avoid even more harmful addictions like alcoholism which is prevalent in my family. I'm trying to stop again but I feel I'll probably smoke again soon. Life is just too painful.