I've been wanting to go to Law School since my freshmen year of College. I even posted on this sub back in 2018 on my main account asking for assitsance on how to prepare. Everyone said to enjoy my first few years, do well in my classes, wait till junior or senior year to start studying. So I did that.

I graduated in Spring 2022 and prepared to take a gap year and apply for Fall 2023. I initially planned on taking the June test but realized I was not prepared so I pushed it back to August. My family (specifcally my mother who is very involved in my life) was disspointed but I did legitmatly think it was for the right call.

Through out the summer, I have been telling my friends and family that I have been studying hard for the LSAT. That over the previous three months, that has what my life has essentially revolved around. But, in reality... I am a fraud. Since June, I have not looked at a single LSAT question and I am signed up for the test this Friday. It is just now hitting me the kind of situation I am in. I just kept procrastinating and beeing lazy. In those three months I did not just sit around and do nothing either. I travleled, constantly went to the gym, and attended my job. But, I literially could not bring myself to study for the LSAT, and I do not know why. I took a diagnotic test at 1am in mid April 2022 to determine my score and it was 136. I took a month long Kaplan prep class that was really good that lasted from late April to early June. I learned a lot in the first few weeks but my motivation to study and work quikckly diminshed as the class went on. And now, three months later, I have not done anything in regards to preperation, and I have lied to damn near every single individual involved in my life about the LSAT. I understand it is my fault, and I feel like I just had to say something to someone. I am terrified for Friday.

Update:

I did not expect the amount of responses for this post. For starters, thank you to the majority of you who commented, gave blunt advice my current situation, and gave me several things to think about as I read every single comment. I am happy I am not the only person that has done this too, reading other peoples comments that heavily procrastinated studying for not just months but years has helped soften my embarrassment and regret. I would like to mention a few things I failed to state in my initial post that several of you gave comments on:

I will still be taking the test tomorrow. I am signed up for the LSAT Score Preview so I am not worried about schools seeing my expected low score since I will likely cancel it.

I have canceled the LSAT before. I was signed up for the June LSAT but canceled it because I did not feel ready and I thought I would study throughout the summer. The test was about a week after my Kaplan class had ended so I figured I would study throughout June and July. I do not want another 200$ dollars to go to waste.

Along with finanical difficulty, I am broke. A lot of you have suggested signing up for tutors and classes that have strict course rules, study plans, and hw, but I can't afford that rn. Currently, all I have is the LSAT PrepPlus subscription which will last until May 2023, and two large Kaplan study books that came with the class I signed up for that I will have forever.

My GPA is 3.4 flat. I majored in History and Poli Sci. I want to attend schools in Colorado, Oregon, or Washington for Environmental Law.

My family is not pressuring me to go into law. I made that decission for myself about three years ago. My mom is just very involved in my life and my siblings lives who are substantially older then me)

If there is anything else I forgot to mention or something new occurs, I will update this post. Thank you all for your contributions, I have a lot to think about in the coming days, weeks, months, and possibly years.