So I have been job hunting for a while now. I have been meh/miserable/bored at my current job. I express gratitude for my employment, and flexible schedule. I am dealing with some workplace issues, which is why I am looking to go.

I saw one job posting where something inside me "clicked" when I read the posting. I applied for it. My references were checked, and I had a great video phone interview. I thought this was "the job." Things worked out where I got what I needed for the interview to take place- a brand new phone to handle the video conference call, and a free phone stand in the mail. I thought we all got along great.

But when I drove to the state to visit for a weekend, and drove by the office/area, something inside me said "no."

Still, I accepted the offer at first, thinking this was right. Maybe I wasn't giving it a chance. Maybe it was fear. Long story short, when I went to a preview event, everything in my gut screamed "no." I withdrew my acceptance.

I am confused. I could visualize myself doing the job. The description on paper sounded perfect. But then doubt crept into my mind. I would be moving for the job, going to a new area. What I saw in real-life were a lot of things not mentioned in the job description, and I did not connect with any of the people. I felt overwhelmed.

I did want a new job; I did apply for what felt "right;" all signs looked good going at the end, but then something said "no."

I do have some other applications/interviews pending.

Someone said to me, "if it's not a -hell yes- in your mind/gut, then it's a -hell no."

I thought this was it at first and then I got negative emotions/feelings about it as things further progressed.

Maybe this is practice for the next interview/ job. I don't know.