As you might of noticed, the word Exmo is pretty much the most unpleasant word to hear or read in such a stream and I totally understand and do not blame anyone. It, unfortunately, had to take a lot of misfortunat events from a series of bad decisions in order to realize the error of my ways.

Due to the regulations that I have read, prior to my decision in writing this post, I'll spare you the details and bring you the abridged "cliff-note" version of my story of descend from the church and (inadvertently) into a pit of despair, leading to find forgiveness and understanding.

I was raised as the youngest of 9 kids. I have siblings who are members and siblings who were already ex-members. The concept of a peaceful home (especially during those days) was foreign to me in a family that I had to grew up with.

The dysfunctional nature in the house became so bad that I decided to become very religious in the church, even to the extent that it may be considered by some as over religious. There was a point in which the two extremes of my over-religious and the over-non-religous household became unsustainable.

It was only after all of my siblings had left that I got to experience some measure of peace. I left the church when my over-devout nature became too much in my mind. Through a series of writings by some famous figures, I became persuaded to join Atheist and secular groups when I first attended college.

It was until a certain point that I realize the error of being associated with the polar opposite came with dreadful consequences. Unfortunately, it is this point of the story that I would need to spare you the details of some of the conducts that I have witnessed by others, which is never the less far from pleasant.

I do not know where my life would be in the future. I do not know whether or not I would be a member again. I do know that, during these severe times we are all facing, I would rather be in the company of those who maintain wholesomeness and civility, which, unfortunately is more than I can say to most Exmos that I have came across.

I hope I may receive understanding, as well as forgiveness. I hope to understand and learn as I try to cleanup my personal life. I don't know what else to say at this point but I'm thankful to be at least a part of the streaming community of later-days. Thank you.