I'm stuck in a loop. I don't know how to change. I want to change but I find myself doing the same crap over and over. So what is the pattern of change? How does one use the atonement to truly change and be made into a new creature? How does one put off the natural man and become a saint? What am I doing wrong? I pray, I read my scriptures. I go to all my church meetings. Why can't I seem to change? I've been caught up in the same sins for 10 years and I am so tired of feeling like a failure. How can I attend the temple? How can I receive revelation? I haven't been able to change so how can I participate in the gospel when I can't feel the spirit? Pres Nelson said it wouldn't be possible to survive spiritually without the spirit constant, guiding companionship and I'm starting to feel that. I really don't know what to do. Does anyone have any thoughts they would please share on this matter?