I'm asking for advice on what you think about the things we do together in our friendship that may be considered inappropriate if we are not in a relationship. Would you do these things with a best friend or with a girlfriend? We are not sexual with each other of course, but I'm wondering if the lines are a bit blurred in other ways - emotional closeness, vulnerability, physical touch, our promises to each other.

I'm asking because we're currently on our longest no-contact friendship break (not really equally mutual, more her cutting me off until mid-December and me 'waiting' for her) and I'm being encouraged by my other close friends to take this break as an opportunity to see things more objectively and from a different perspective and to see how I feel... Since I often feel over-extended in my friendship with her which leads to little communication breaks which are inconsistent and not always mutual. Sometimes I feel a bit abandoned by her. And since our break, I have more emotional bandwidth to brave the dating apps with draining chit-chat, so I've been on more dates than I have all year and finally met some wild women who give me all the feels and all the things.

1. She is an early riser and leaves me 5-15 minute voice notes every morning when she goes on her morning walk, but she doesn't like me leaving her voice notes longer than 3 minutes because she finds it difficult to focus on them (English isn't her native language)
2. We text everyday, throughout the day, including before sleeping. We both work from home and so I get distracted from work most days.
3. Our texts are peppered with emojis, particularly hearts, and when she doesn't use emojis that's when I know she's not feeling good that day/in that moment, so I ask what's up and we talk about that (she has BPD too so her moods can fluctuate a lot in the day)
4. We talk on the phone a few times in the week sometimes for up to 1.5 hours.
5. We give each other a peck on the lips for greetings/goodbyes, hugs and long hugs, and hold hands often when we go on walks.
6. She has mentioned on a few occasions that she feels like we are in a relationship sometimes but can't put her finger on why. I don't know but I've often had best friends (and still do) where we are emotionally very close so this kind of closeness and companionship doesn't feel so alien to me. She is 10 years older though and not very queer.
7. We say we love each other daily
8. We made a promise to be 'forever friends'. She told me I'm her favorite person a year ago and she can't imagine life without me - yet sometimes cuts me off completely to take space.
9. We have soooo many inside jokes
10. We meet up at least once a week, sometimes it's been up to 4 times in one week.
11. She invites me into the bathroom when she's peeing, showering, and we undress in front of each other sometimes when we're getting ready to go out

Thank you for reading and sharing.

Edit: added number 11