I have done a LOT of self reflecting in the last… idk like 2 months? And have slowly (but surely) come to the conclusion that I’m a lesbian. A lot of people and threads have helped me, as well as my therapist, and friends, and self reflecting, but in the end… I realise I was using men as a “quick fix” for happiness because it was so easy for their “approval” even if it was only at face value of me being attractive to them. And I thrived and lived off of that. I literally was using their validation in a set harming way, hurting myself, and just jumping from one to another. And it finally makes sense why I was never happy with a man. And why I only have good memories of the women I was with. And how we never had huge horrible bad breakups.

I’m not out to some people because I fear what they’d say or do… but for my own solace- I’m understanding myself. And I’m happier. With myself. And with life. I feel a weight off my chest. I feel free finally.