I don’t know if this is the right place to post, but I couldn’t think of another place to post that’s a wlw forum that would be receptive of me posting about my relation to men.

I’m not a late bloomer lesbian as such - I’ve only ever been with girls and have never had a boyfriend or even kissed a guy. I realised my attraction to women quite soon. Although I did have a ‘crush’ on a guy in my teens that looking back had comphet written all over it. (I asked him out, he rejected me, thank god!)

My question - ever since I discovered p0rn, I’ve been inexplicably aroused by p0rn related to men using me in some way. I’m not attracted to men, and I don’t think I’d like if a man touched me in real life and definitely wouldn’t like to touch a man in real life. In my fantasies, the less attractive the man is and the more debasing the situation, the more aroused I am. There’s never a specific man but a faceless man. Think touched in public, forced to be touched, naked in public for men’s viewing pleasure.

Whereas in my fantasies with women, I can’t imagine such humiliating situations and always go to a more ‘normal’ wholesome type making out or something. However I really don’t like lesbian p0rn. I find it difficult to make myself come to it. Whereas the p0rn I described above, I can come quite quickly. I do find movie scenes between two women hot when there’s been some sparks or relationship established between them. And I find women hot in real life.

I’m not really questioning my sexual orientation, since I really have no interest in dating men. But I would like to know if this sort of thing is common? Is it something to be concerned about or just a harmless fantasy? Could it be due to my exposure to and consumption of only that kind of p0rn for a long time? Is there a way I can ‘change’ it and be aroused by different p0rn? Or should I just give up p0rn altogether? My gf knows about this and while she doesn’t mind per se, she doesn’t quite know what to make of it.

I’ve posted something similar long ago and was chastised for being a ‘lesbian posting about being attracted to men’