TLDR: Women keep disappearing and never want to date me.

Haunted by ghosts, and the ever-ephemeral succubus that will only tease, I feel doomed I will never find her…

For years now I have tried dating sites, have hung out around places where non-straight people like to gather, I have sent out countless messages to women, and yet nothing. I never had this problem with men. Women always ghost me, or we’re just simply not compatible for some reason. I don’t live in an area that is very large however, nor does it have a very big LGBTQ community.

I have been in complete burnout mode lately, and yet I managed to travel recently to a nearby town to meet a woman and (finally!) go on a date. It went amazingly, we had such an incredible connection. I was so excited, and I’ve never felt like this before in my life. She asked if she could see me again when I was leaving. I said yes, of course, and reiterated how awesome it was and she agreed.

Since I didn’t have any other way of contacting her, next day I sent her my number in a message on the dating site that I met her on. She replied a day later wishing me a good day. I replied to the same, but she didn’t answer. Then the next day (by then it had been three days since we met) I sent her a text, asking her when she wanted to meet up again. She read it within a few minutes, but never replied. Now another day has gone by and I still haven’t heard anything.

We almost never met in the first place, actually because on the app when she asked to meet, and I asked if she wanted to meet me in my town, she just never replied. I had to follow up and she apologized and explained she had car problems and wasn’t able to make it to my town. I thought there was a chance she actually really wasn’t interested and didn’t want to meet up with me, but we ended up meeting anyway, and it went so well that I believed her car issues story.

I still haven’t heard any reply from her, and I feel like she’s ghosting me now too just like everyone else. I really don’t understand this at all. It makes me so depressed. Ever since I can remember, I have just wanted another female to love and to adore. It feels almost as if the universe is playing a cruel joke on me. I don’t understand why this keeps happening. This is exactly why I kept dating men to begin with, thinking that I was bisexual.

I know that the way our modern society works, it doesn’t seem to encourage real connection. But even someone like this girl, she was one of those seemingly genuine types. I just don’t get it. Why do all of these women keep ghosting, canceling dates, trying to avoid me like the plague? I know I have my own uniqueness, but that shouldn’t matter. Again, I’ve never had this problem with men. Why do they put themselves out there if they don’t plan to actually follow through with anything? I can’t seriously imagine that this many women are truly that afraid and lacking actual willpower. It’s ridiculous and it hurts a lot. My life has not been easy. But I refuse to give up on this matter, or on anything. At least I’m out there still trying.