I've loved her since I was 13. Her music was quite literally the reason I didn't commit the die. Every album was a motivator for me to keep going. I always told myself that I can't miss this one - it's always gonna be the best she's made yet. It got me through so many nights. It was like every time I had a break down, Lana announced she was going to make a new album and I had to sit back and be like "well fuck".

But as someone who lives in the deep south, who knows exactly what sort of man she married because I am surrounded by them. I mean I am devastated. Not in a parasocial way. I mean. I'll live, obviously. But. To me, she always represented someone who was misunderstood. A woman who didn't quite fit in. A woman who was gentle and delicate, but desired freedom in a way that somehow defied that same submissiveness. She's contradictory in such a unique, such a beautiful way. I've defended her through hell and back.

But I cannot defend this. It sickens me. I know I am not the only one - and people SHOULD be allowed to talk about it. It's a big deal for the fandom. A big fucking deal. To marry someone like that says a whole lot about who she is. And I can't listen to Grandfather without wincing now.

She claimed to be one of the last white women who had good intentions in her last album and now I'm like "is this a conservative dog whistle?" "Is this coming from a place of christian white savorism?" It's ruined the song for me, because how can you claim you're for one thing, and then marry that

I'm trying to find every excuse in the book. I want to believe it's mania. I want to believe she's currently off her meds. But the other half of me is convinced that this is the Lana we got now. That she's fallen into the the trad-witch to trad-wife pipeline. I've been pretty chatty about it. Some of you have seen me. I've been fairly obsessive on here tonight, but oh well. I'm on my 3rd cup of coffee and my veins are filled with sugary adrenaline. I got banned from the other subreddit so you know there's a bit of unhinged rage in there as well.

I think within time I'll listen to her music again, but the heat of the election this year is too much. People's livelihoods are at stake because of you know who and just. The fact she married. Fuck. Man. It just. I never expected her or wanted her to be perfect. I loved her as an imperfect artist. But this is too much. Even for me. Lana is rich and wealthy and she gets to play southern house wife now, but she'll always have an out.

I'm in the deep south. I'm poor. I'm uneducated. I will likely never be able to leave. I am surrounded by men who don't think I, as a woman, do not deserve rights. It's one thing for the women down here to settle for men like him, but it's always a slap in the face to see someone be born with so much opportunity - and this is not to demeen her struggles, because I have no doubt she has had many, but to look at the reality so many women (so many people) here are forced to live with and then to not only idolize that, but have the knowledge and education to know better - and still choose to do it. It just. It literally pains me.

For the record, I have no issues with house wives. I have issues with marrying someone who believes in the shit he believes in. When you marry someone, you become a unit. That's why marrying someone who shares your views is so important. You are seen as one. And I don't know what happened to make her go from dissing he who must not be named to fucking this. I have an idea, as I've mentioned over and over. It just. It speaks for her views currently. And I don't know if I can continue to support that as long as I still live in fear of how this year is going to turn out.

I expect for this to get a lot of hate or even be deleted, but I just needed to get one final rant off my chest 🙏🏻