I started last year in April as a new lab tech for a leukemia group at my uni.

I was able to do a lot of techniques very quick, and because I also wanted to prove my worth I did a lot of work in very little time. The PI even said multiple times how a PhD would be a smart move.

Now after being there almost a year, I discovered I actually don't like the responsibilities I subconsciously carry.

For example: I'm titled the head lab tech for another groups that's being started up as we speak. Which asks me to do 101 I don't have a background in. I always feel like I need to answer my chats with colleague's, even outside of working hours (is this an academia curse?) I feel like working less than 8 hours is frowned upon even if you worked 10 hours the previous day. I feel like I don't work hard enough. I had a stab accident with a needle with human leukemia in and ever since that I either been feeling inadequate to do certain injections. I forgot to perfect a protocol (which I never ran before)

I think because I was so persistent the first few months, I'm feeling a kind of imposter syndrome about whether or not I really can keep doing the job on the same level.

P.S. I also didn't have a holiday break because I needed to come into the lab to check on a certain PhD student his mice breedings and cell lines. So I guess the fact of not feeling well rested has been playing parts in my insecurities.