Last weekend my partner(f37) and me (m42) did a sensual massage to a friend while she was blindfolded and deafened by noisecancelling earbuds. She didn't know us or met us, see us beforehand or after. The whole thing was arranged by her husband for their 20yr old marriage anniversary.

Long story short it was very sexual in nature in the beginning but the whole experience turned into a spiritual one. It lasted 15 min and we spontaneously got so in tuned with her and each other. At the end of it we all hugged and i felt zing in my head and chest. It felt like something moved, a small explosion. It was making me cry happy tears.

Couple days pass and I'm at my friends house and i take a weed hit from his bong and suddenly he has to go somewhere, i say ok i guess I'll go home high as fuck and drive through NYC in heavy traffic for 20 mins. Nothing i haven't done before many times.

I start feeling strangely emotional and i feel my body tingly and vibrating. I felt my prostate vibrating and my heart very intensely. I'm starting to panic because I'm freaking on the highway! It became more and more intense and then I feel my chest pulsating to the point of being unbearable. I started breathing along my spine and singing random stuff and it came down somewhat so I came home to my partner somewhat cool.

We lay in bed and we watch a show on Netflix and it happened again! Very internal. Pulsating in my groin and heart area. I think it was an orgasm on the body level, never felt this before it was pure extasy also baffling (She didn't notice it at all, it was internal totally).

Coincidentally I've been reading a lot about kundalini, chakras and sexual transmutation in the last month, experimenting.

It all feels very good like I've unblocked something. Also feel my partner lot more. And I love her more somehow. I feel more in general..

Thoughts?