Spoiler for some serious and non serious topics. Not sure if my flair is right but I'm feeling some self-doubt about myself and my sexuality.

Hello! So, I uh figured out I'm Bi lol. I'm kinda just wanting to tell people. I'm a 22 year old cis guy, and the past couple months have been very eye opening to say the least on this front. I have been chatting on Reddit with cis men (Femboys in this case), cis women, trans men, trans women, and a non-binary person. A couple of the people are also autistic, and they may very well be in this sub too. If so, hey! Lol.

Honestly I feel kinda inadequate for the people I've been talking with. Like, there's better people they could be talking to lol. I'm thankful they are talking with me though. I'm thankful they haven't left me yet.

But uh, yeah. I'd been having Bi thoughts before lately (Within the last year), but the past couple months, I think I've concluded I'm Bi. The thing though, is that I have anxiety and some other stuff, and if I'm honest, there's a voice in the back of my mind telling me that I'm not Bi. That I'm faking it somehow, possibly to feel special (Especially since I've only been having Bi thoughts lately) Or that it's wrong and I'm wrong to feel this way. Admittedly, I grew up in a conservative Christian household, and I used to be bigoted (I truly ask you to forgive me, and I understand if you don't). I bet that my upbringing is making me doubt myself. Like, I believe I'm Bi, but I can't escape a vague feeling that I'm being sinful or something. I hate this feeling. I FUCKING hate it!

Honestly I just want someone to tell me I'm not faking it and that I'm not wrong. Tbh I'm crying a little as I'm writing this. 😥😢

But uh, to get back to non serious stuff, I've found some kinks I like. I think I'm slightly kinky to say the least lol. I LOVE praise and possibly humiliation. I've found that I'm a switch and I love calling people mommy and daddy and that I kinda like being called daddy. I feel like I like being a sub a bit more tbh. I fantasy of mine is lowkey to be tied up and used by someone for their pleasure. Being a toy for someone sounds so nice.

But uh yeah. The past couple months has been exploratory and revelatory.

Thanks for reading!