I have my surgery in a few hours, I was feeling positive about it all the way up until now. I’m definitely feeling scared about the recovery, about the pain level and how I will feel emotionally. I like to think of myself as a strong person but this is obviously a really big deal and I’m already freaking myself out by reading posts where the recovery lasted years even. I just hope I will recover fast or even just have manageable pain quickly. My mom is the donor and I’m also worried and feel guilty about having her go through the surgery. Idk a lot of emotions running through me rn, I pretty much broke down yesterday and just had to sob for a bit. Then I had to act like everything was normal bc I stayed overnight at the hospital after dialysis and they needed to draw blood. Idk I’m really not the person to reach out, that’s why I’m here on Reddit lol. Anyways my mom is already in surgery and I just keep feeling more and more nervous. I want to trust the doctors when they say the pain will get better and that the pain meds will help and wtv they say but yk how that goes. This all just feels unreal, like I really just have to go through this.