I can't do it anymore. I can't go back to the depressing, uninspired, zombified, foggy, antisocial person I am when I'm not on ketamine. Taking this drug is a curse, solely because it gives gives me a demo of the person I should be: inquisitive, emotional, loving, inspired. And then snatches it all away.

Yes, at high doses, I become detached and unable to function. But at small doses, I not only function; I thrive. It feels like the missing puzzle piece to my brain. And it sucks that I can only feel this way temporarily before regressing back into my shell of a body, brain and life.

This drug makes me feel so rich with life. Does anyone else feel this way?