Has anyone every experience I in a k hole just before you completely dissociate the feeling that everything is broken, like your life is a vhs that is damaged and the veil lifts, you see the simulation realize that you are aware of what everything is and that they need to repair and wipe this awareness away and then boom you completely fall out and you feel everything fold like a piece of paper to the smallest pin point and slip through the hole and the it repeats over and over until finally you start to come out of it. I’ve had this experience twice. Once at a music festival during a tipper set and once alone and let me tell you, it’s far more scary when people are around because they give you this sense that they know you know and that is against the rules. Honestly writing this is the first time I’ve been able to verbalize it and I still don’t explained it well enough. I’d love to hear other people takes on what I call the thumb people, the sense of brokenness that needs repair before you are completely aware. Please let’s hear more of these stories if possible to put into words.