Do you remember how you saw the world when being in a dissociative state? Not small dose, not khole, but in that robotic state where everyting feels like another dimention.

I sobered up now, it's been a week since the trip and I can't stop thinking about how I saw the world when I took K at a party. It felt like everything was so much more, everything was connected in a very weird way. It was like a book and I could flip the pages everytime I blinked. The pages were parts of the party that I focused on - the dj, some people, the bar, the floor.. And when I thought I understood.. it didn't make sense again. I'm trying to make sense of it but I just can't now that I'm sober. I feel that there are also parts that I dont rememer.. and wonder if I acted weird or smth.

At some point I knew that it was a trip, and felt it was so interesting how everything seemed and I tried to study it all so I could remember after. But now it's just an idea of how that felt. I was blown away of all that new information and my brain couldn't process everything. It was so fun and interesting but could get overwhelming at times.

I dont even know how to better describe what happend.. Wish I could. But i'm like.. Wtf was that? Why can't I make any sense of it? Why did it feel awesome, but also like I kinda wanted to escape it?