to anyone and everyone: for the love of god don't choose the moment after someone's just bashed out a fat rail to bring up serious topics or negative feelings (ESPECIALLY if you've encouraged them to do it). you're talking to someone who's just been reduced to a baby brain, a tiny egg, a little distant star waiting to be born. you can't expect a normal response and get mad when you don't get one when someone is literally anaesthetized. save the processing for another time and just act like you would with a confused baby for 20 minutes. come on!

someone really wanted to watch me do lines yesterday, which is fun and hot, but then decided right as i was slipping into a hole to get really mad about their own issues i knew nothing about and blame them on me? this was after they had talked about how sexy lowered inhibitions are and how they wanted to watch me get so fucked up i couldn't move. so clearly they understood how k works! i broke down crying because i genuinely didn't know what was happening, being halfway into a k-hole and all, and they started lecturing me about how it's all my fault because i can't handle my drugs. not true! i just can't handle people being intentionally cruel.

just don't do this to anyone, please.