My son was given Ketamine in the ER to correct his dislocated knee cap. It was on the side of his knee as a result of a fall down the stairs. He is 18 years old. While sedated they moved it back and started having issues with it staying. There were 6 people in the from and I of course was asked to stand in the hall. He started waking up and asking if he was going to die. He was saying “ Im scared”in a really strange voice and started yelling out in pain while they worked on the knee. Fast Forward 48 hours he has a brace on to immobilize the knee and an MRI appointment next week. He is doing ok. I, on the other hand am far from ok. I of course haven’t said anything to him about this. I can’t get the sound of his voice out of my head. I’m having panic attacks, can’t sleep, nightmares when I do, and I start crying almost every time I talk to him. ( He doesn’t know as he is bed bound upstairs and I am down. The look on his face, the drooling, hearing him say how scared he was and all the yelling has me completely fucked up. I have never felt anything like this. It’s a nightmare. What is wrong with me? I know the way I am feeling and the things I’m thinking aren’t healthy or safe.