I typically have K around the house and I only do it on occasion but recently my use escalated. Two weeks ago I finally got a paycheck for the first time in a while and bought 2g. In two weeks I managed to do ~1.3 g, which to me feels like a lot compared to my typical use. On nights I use K, I avg 150-200mg/night.

Every night that I'm alone I feel intense growing cravings to take more and I can tell my tolerance is catching up fast. The last few nights I had fairly disappointing trips - I told myself I'd take a break to regain tolerance but the cravings have been overwhelming. Last night 300mg hardly got me there.

I know it's worthy of concern because I haven't been telling my girlfriend or my friends about it, maybe out of fear that I'll have to stop. I find it sad that I can't do it all the time; the effect it has on my conceptual thinking has been so stimulating, satisfying and genuinely educational. When I sober up I'm always surprised at how sincerely profound my trips can be. I feel crazy for loving a drug in this way!

I'm writing this now just because I don't know where to put the energy I'm getting from the craving - I'm fighting the urge to buy a vape or something else to can get addicted to.