Long time user 10 years on and off recently pretty heavily. Everytime I get deep into the high I start telling myself I need to break up with my girlfriend. At one point I did and she said you’re just high and when I came down we stayed together. When I’m sober everything is fine and overall she’s a pretty great gf. But when I get all spun it’s like taking over my brain and driving me nuts particularly when I’m coming down. I want to add that she doesn’t like it and doesn’t really let me do it around her for obvious reasons so idk if it’s the drug trying to get her away so I can do more or if it’s something about our relationship or what. Wondering if this happens with anyone else or anyone has any insights.
Thanks!