Still processing my experience last night. I've done plenty of K in the last year and I've always considered it a fairly subtle experience compared to psychedelics, and much more clear and introspective than weed or alcohol.

Last night, for the first time, I combined a lot of weed with two fat lines of K and had an insane, intense trip. Finally understood what a lot of people here have said, it definitely brings a radical change in perspective. All of my problems with weed - the constant desire and lack of satisfaction with anything - suddenly came under scrutiny, in such an extreme way that brought on a near panic attack.

I'm still recovering a bit. I feel like I should be sober for a moment but I'm drawn to it again. Weed always brings on a feeling in me that I need the *perfect* thing to watch, or listen to, or eat. I need to consume. Combined with K, though, it became not only about satisfaction but also what is intellectually stimulating. I spent about an hour trying to come up with something that would feel valuable and I landed on listening to Terry Riley's "In C".

All the while I was melting, spreading, my demons were surfacing and I was constantly cooling myself down. I was cycling through pain and pleasure and every wave brought on new growth and realization.

I still don't know how I feel - if it was traumatic or healing. It was a shock to my system, largely because I was expecting to just chill for the night lol