Sleep paralysis

Hi everyone again,

These days have been terrific. After a quite intense weekend me and my partner have managed to stay clean for the last two days.

I am however now having some awful episodes of sleep paralysis. They involve my partner and it's very frustrating because it feels totally like it is real because our disposition (placement) in my dream is the same as in real life.

In my dream, my partner (who is next to me sleeping) forces me to some kind of unconsexual sex by applying too much strength into my body. I have had this same dream for at least 8 times during this night and I'm really afraid of sleeping again rn.

I took a bit of melatonin because I though it would help me sleep better, but its not going well as you can see... Could this also be involved?

What the fuck is going on???

Thank you