I'm always a little surprised that I'm even on a drug when I do K. Obviously everything is so far and removed from my usual reality but I don't feel like I'm being mutated or transported like I do with LSD or shrooms. I don't take on any new personas or lose my train of thought so much. It's like looking in the most detailed mirror.

I take it at shows and parties sometimes but I get the most out of it when I'm alone at night. It's a little intense but I always end up thinking about where I am in the greater context of my life. Where I've come from, how I'll look back on this time, etc. I find it very cathartic. I write a lot of psychotic poetic babble everywhere and find it later that night / the next morning.

It's bittersweet for many reasons though. It makes my alone time more enriching but I also find it lonely to only have this to myself. I can't tell my girlfriend or my friends how much I do it or they'll be worried about me. I find it very relaxing and healing to dissociate but from what I read on here a lot of people warn about forming a habit.

But the fact that it feels so natural makes me forget that it's even a drug, just like everything else. I'm sure there are other ways to access this headspace but K does such a good job of getting me there and giving me new context for everything. I really wish I could do it all the time.