Turns out this girl blew through 26g in two weeks 🙃 thank you body for giving me no side effects as of yet. Just getting skinny and appearing so much more vibrant to others... Like whyyyy would I stop? It's my secret sauce now. My therapist doesn't know the extent of my use but knows I use k. She says I've been breaking through and am most present and self aware I've ever been! So is this the "limitless" drug? Stopped chasing the hole and just low dose linining to keep on glowing all day long. Family loves me I started a business... haha what the actual fuck? Is ketamine the miracle humanity doesn't know about?

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So a bit of background. I've been prescribed and went to fuck knows how many iv sessions over past three years. Had a minor bender back in March - how I ended up on this sub. Never saw a breakthrough but definitely felt the "baby steps" out of my dark hole. I have severe PTSD and treatment resistant Major Depressive Disorder, with a few side dishes of other things as well.

Three weeks ago I've hit yet another severe traumatic event, a few of them in a package actually. I was probably at my lowest low yet.

I started using on a bender on my own. I really wanted to get to that "breakthrough" the doctors and patients all have been raving about. Hole after hole no light was coming in the end of my tunnel. I grew trylly hopeless and decided to might as well just drown myself in it.

Skip forward to two days ago... It came! I feel like myself again. Something in my brain just flipped and I see colors and hope again.

I trylly understand every concern on here. I hear you and I am well aware that living the rest of my life like this is not a situation I can maintain.

What I am seeing though is that since I stopped chasing that "breakthrough hole" I've found myself actually achieving results on much lower doses spaced through the day.

I truly belive that I literally shoved enough k into my nose and brain at this point for something to FINALLY hit the switch.

Long term I have no intent to carry on with daily use. I am through my stash and have no intent nor resources to refill it. I pray the results stay and don't flea me. Because I'm absolutely radiant now. Like I've never been before.

Ketamine is strictly psychologically addictive. At this point in life the only thing I'm truly good at is convincing myself to keep on going. I am hoping and motivated to do the same now with just keeping myself clean and maintaining this new found glow.

The silly part of me of course wishes I could maintain a "health daily use" forever as it really has been a miracle drug for me by far. I'm also a realist and young enough person to realize that it'll only cause permanent damage where improvements aren't being made.

So with all of your kind advice and concern - thank you! I am dedicated to a plan to stop though I do struggle to accept that I must - I will. I have my last gram that I'm going to blow (love a good pun) with grace and found appreciation of all k has now given me. Past that I am cut off. I'm moving back to my country where there's literally no way to obtain it. Temptation to do that would be met with literal threat of death penalty. I did this to find life - not to meet death.

Please all wish me good luck in maintaining the glow and toughing it out through this psychological withdrawal that I am about to face!

To ketamine - my friend - you have trylly saved my life! I will forever respect your magic powers and impact it's made on my mental health.

Love to you all 🖤