Not sure why I’m writing this but I just wanted to share this somewhere. I started doing k a while back (about 6 months), used to take it every night before bed for a while when I started waking up to nose bleeds, not sure if they were because of k but anyways, after taking a break of about a month or two I decided to start again. I don’t know anything about dosage tbh, I just grew out my nails and used that as a spoon, never really did lines except for once or twice. A week ago I did my usual amount, and after about an hour or two I felt kinda sober but decided to do some more since I was still kind of wide awake, that was ngl the worst decision I made that week. After that one line it hit me like a fucking truck within a matter of like 5 minutes, it felt great for a while but oh my fucking god. I was laying in bed with my vape and phone and suddenly I felt like I just did a shit ton of lsd but also not? Idk how to describe it. Me, my bed and my vape were one being, then I forgot that there was a world outside of my room so I thought my room was the only thing that ever existed and that I was also the same being as my room? After a while I started calming myself down and realized that me and my room were in fact not one being but for some reason, even tho I knew it wasn’t true, It still felt real. Idk man I started thinking about life and how I’m not indestructible and will not go on to live forever but I will actually die, like what will happen after that?? I just got hella anxious, eventually after trying to unlock my phone for about 10 minutes I opened YouTube and started watching something and eventually fell asleep. I felt better when I woke up of course but still feel kinda anxious about death and stuff. Idk wasn’t a pleasant experience to be completely honest. What I’m wondering is: is this what a k hole always feels like or was I just panicked and kinda ruined it for myself? And if I did, is there like any way I can improve my next k hole?