Ill start by stating i just got off benzos and and still having some WDs and i know it can take years for it to reset. Im also a frequent cocaine user and occasional mushroom user (about once a month). not sure if any of that will impact. I’ll also denote i have a semi high tolerance for drugs in general.

I started out around 4pm taking small 20mgs lines every 30 min or so, The first few hours i felt like all my anxiety was gone and i was in a great mood. I sorted out my shoe collection and cleaned some of an extra room at home. This was about the most enjoyable it got. Fast forward 2 hrs i started to take 30mg lines, at one point i felt the wonky feeling everyone talks about and was chilling on the couch listening to music. Afterwards i just felt weird.

My Gf got home around 8 and tried 2 20mg lines herself while i continued. That was all she did. I probably did around 300mg total as i didn’t wanna hole necessarily. Im usually talkative but i was quiet still listening to music. Definitely felt something just not IT, the hype that’s behind this drug i hear all my friends rave about.

Around 10 decided to call it quits as i’ve felt more sedative/enjoyable properties taking large doses of my prescribed drugs (gabapentin, trazodone, hydroxizine, seroquel). figured i’d save the rest and try taking larger doses at a different time.

Have large amounts of benzos ruined this for me? Am i too used to being sedated and dissociated that unless i hole out im not going to feel much? any advice to have a better experience next time? or could i be one of those people it’s just … not for?