Hello! So I am fresher who graduated last year. I honestly dk what I was doing after graduating. Ive been so lost and depressed for so long now. I wanted to do something but kept failing. It felt like im working on it but i just kept working on it and never achieved anything or learnt anything and nothing really worked out for me because I get so confused about what am I doing.

In 2020, I was in my second year and I was looking for remote internships. Everyone was doing it who was around my age and they woukd get selected. I would apply to many, most would reject me, some would reach out to me but still after all the hard work there was no outcome because I would give up at the end ykwim. Like they would give me tasks and stuff and some I would even complete but no response for them and this had been going on since 3 yrs including my hunt for jobs as well.

So I just wasted my 4 yrs like this till today. I was so done w this shit and I was extremely desperate to get a job this time. I have been applying to multiple companies since June. Gave many interviews but got rejected. I always felt like I lack skills for my job profile but if i wont fake it I wouldn't make it and i kept faking it tbh.

My interviews were sooo bad because I just dont know how converse properly with anyone except my mom dad and brother. I am an extremely introverted person but also super anxious socially. My body language is lame.

So yea sorry I lost track of the conversation I gave an interview. The company is in a very big city of my country where I was not aiming to get a job at all cuz its hella expensive and life is fast paced and ppl are extremely talented and competitive but I was applying blindly to jobs cuz I was desperate.

I was not expecting it but cuz the interview did not go well but i got a call that I am selected 3 hrs later of the interview.

I feel like earlier I was desperate now im anxious. I feel like what if my skills are not good enough and what if I fuck it up. They mentioned in offer letter that they can terminate me in a month if they did not like my work and i can do the same. I am so scared I feel like I lack skills and idk if ill be able to do it. I wanna be good sooo bad and I want to get exposure in life cuz im from a very small town. I haven't experienced anything in life and my college was so bad.

But my question is how am i supposed to act in office. Idk how to talk with people and idk what am I supposed to do. Once i went to give an interview I was so awkward and clumsy I was not able to sit properly on a normal chair cuz the HR was standing in front of my face.

For a month its a remote job but I am scared what If I mess it up in the first month cuz no one will be here to correct me but I am also happy I wont have to talk with ppl for a month.

My first day is tomorrow i am excited but nervous too. Pls I would really appreciate some advices and sorry for long post

Also they are paying me very low compensation for the city I am going to. I would be thankful if I will be able to pay my rent with that salary which seems a bit impossible. Ive been advised by my cousin to look for better opportunities while working for them or ask for increasing salary in 3 months. Even tho its entry level job some ppl telling its too low for it as well. I am just grateful that they selected me tho. What should I do