Next year, I'll be in NY. I've been in Orlando currently but without a car, my life has been at a standstill for years. Between my unflattering resume and no driver's license, unsurprisingly I can't even nab the most bottom of the barrel jobs.

My dad tells me it'll only be worse in a metropolitan where the population density is even higher and there's more competition. But mom insists on pushing me for a state job, and to not settle for minimum wage. Even though I don't have a degree or work experience... I'm a defeatist so I find her optimism charming, but frankly unrealistic.

My friends suggest volunteer work... But I fail to see how that does anything for me when my biggest problem is having absolutely no money to do anything. Between HRT, potential loans, and finding my own space... I need a stable source of income, and fast.

My family is urging that I don't move back in with my mom and that I be an adult and try to find a housing program in CUNY. Which means either absurd loans I can't sign for, or monthly payments I don't know how I'll pay... I've been trying to keep my head up saying I'll make it work.

Have my own space to be an "adult" (🫣) but... Doing the same thing and expecting a different result is the definition of insanity is it not? Especially since I'm not trying to waste any more time than I already have...

I'm willing to take anything in this point.. what would you do in my position?

I also tried posting this in NYC but it just got removed without reason.