I'm a man in almost every sense. I have a decent sized cock, nice girth I just fucking lack stamina. I cum too quickly. I often wonder if the issue is when I fuck my wife I think about all the times she has cheated on me and maybe that's why I shoot my load so quick. She is 47F , big ole "but nice" fat white ass with dimples on them. She has a gorgeous face big tits, nice tits and her body is proportionate to her weight. She's about 200lbs. And it has become clear to me with her cheating over the last 20 plus years, she doesn't want to leave me she just wants to get fucked like a whore. Before we were married, rumor had it (I was in the military ) that she fucked numerous guys, one being a semi pro basketball player. A friend of mine said his girlfriend walked into a bathroom and a huge black guy was fucking her face while she sat topless on a toilet squeezing her own tits, and never stopped when her friend walked in. She said the guy had a lot of Cock and his balls were slapping her chin. Over the years she has fucked her boss, who was 30 years her senior and married. I found an email thanking her for being a good little slut and he thanked her for letting her "cum" on her face. Another time there was rumors swirling she was fucking a married cop. He was a married power lifter. I caught her walking out of his alley "and she said she was just going for a walk" she appeared to have cum all over her hair and shirt. We broke up for a bit and she then "ad her friend told me after a few drinks" that she was with a married male nurse and it always "sounded like they were having fun, especially with her ass " that's what she told me. Since we got back together rumor had it that she fucked a bartender. I seen on her messenger him asking her why she didn't come in anymore. I found an email between her and a firefighter naked pics and video of her talking dirty and he sending videos of him jacking off. Most recently she fucked her assist, I have audio of this of him calling her a fat little bitch and her telling him to spank her ass and screaming "just fuck me " she was making sounds I never heard before. Not passion but grunting like an animal. Since then we moved and everything has slowed down. However recently she's been buying new clothes and losing weight. I can't help but to beat my cock looking at the pictures texts or listening to the audio a few times a week why she's at work. Our sec life is now blah .. I'm thinking about stepping out, but what I really want is to watch her get fucked. Get her pussy owned by a worthy cock. I want to Jack off and watch this happen in real life so bad. So I secretly hope she's up to no good, being the slut I've grown to love.