I hardly have any faith left, but I have to post this here bc anywhere else I go I would be told to just leave the faith altogether and embrace the lgbt lifestyle. I am frustrated. So frustrated. I feel alone, and like I'm suffocating. It's a really hard place to be, wanting to be with another guy, but trying not to get into major sins.

I've been doing better in terms of not thinking about suicide much lately but today the emptiness hit harder than usual and I keep feeling the urge to stab myself.

I don't understand what to do. I came here bc I wanted to speak with someone else about it, though I guess there's not much more to say.

I know you've got to stay strong and it'll be better in the afterlife, but I'm having a really hard time making it through the days, and thinking of having to put up with this for life is upsetting. Also note that I can't draw much comfort from the faith itself due to complicated reasons.

I'm lost.