I'm not saying I feel conflicted about supporting my country or people, absolutely not, it's something more...complicated.

Sometimes I feel as if being who I am, a Palestinian Muslim, automatically turns me into some kind of hero or saint...even though I'm the complete opposite, I have sinned very often and I'm not the most pious or righteous person.

Sometimes I feel as though by association with my brothers and sisters in Gaza, and in the outskirts of the West Bank, I'm a victim of genocide and apartheid, and I must be treated as such, but...I've never had to face such things in my life, I've never been confronted by an IOF/IGF soldier, I've never had my house and property be taken away from me, and I've never had a close family member of mine be killed in this genocide.

Sometimes I pray for my brothers and sisters in Gaza and I ask for their forgiveness, and for the martyrs to be placed in Jannat al-Firdaūs, but (and I'm not saying this proudly or to mean any offense) I don't relate to them as much as I wish I do, I've never had to suffer or fight the way they suffered and fought, I don't know what it's like to be tormented in the ways they were tormented, I don't know what it's like to sit in a tent outside piles of rubble, not knowing where my next meal is going to come from, nor whether I will be alive the next day.

I don't know, I just want to know what you guys think, how I should view this issue of mine?