I'm a 20 year old male from Saudi Arabia. I left Islam about 2 years ago. I am so lost and done with my life. I sometimes get thoughts about ending it all. I need some guidance in my life and don't try to give me the same bullsh*t advice that every Muslim on her gives... "just come back to islam bro" "because you re a kaafir now". To me Allah is the most evil being there is. He makes us and for what? What is the point of all of this. If Allah is real then he has to be evil. Keep in mind. I don't care that much about myself, but why did Allah make some people poor and some people rich. Some people ugly, and some people attractive. Some people healthy, and some people unhealthy. It is so easy for someone to be Allah worshipper who has got everything. Who has money, healthy and beauty. But it so difficult for a person who has none of that to follow Islam because he/she will always want more watching how the rich and attractive people get away with so much and get treated so differently. 2 years ago, my friend's brother who was four died battling cancer (I hope no one gives a stupid explanation to this, saying Allah was testing). I'm truly sorry but I can't follow who God who has favorites. Allah does have favorites idc. There are people who have an easier life than others. Why did Allah stop sending prophets, when he knew this youth, especially this generation needed guidance. I really wanna believe in Islam because it's a beautiful religion and I can't sleep at nights thinking there is nothing but darkness after death. If this gets removed, I will have truly lost hope in Islam and Muslims. I deserve to know why is He so evil?