I am a revert Muslim. I have every intentions to start praying. So now it’s 2 months and I couldn’t pray? I have major depression and I often bash myself mentally only because I missed them. I usually feel like I am chained inside a snowball globe and cannot act out on things naturally(no emotions) and plans on praying them steers me away from them. The fun fact is I can ask for help but I cannot pray? I’m having so much issue with myself in my mind and I have no problem wanting to pray but I cannot pray. I can assure you I am making this no senses. I just hope a Muslim can point out to why and the solution to get better. In Islam, they say Allah is oft forgiving but I find it hard to believe that true when I missed them. Any help would be appreciated. Even to reach out on daily basis would be a help. Thank you