So iv come to the realization that everyone has their own shit to deal with, their own inner demons, their own views on society and stuff, blah blah blah. lol Iv realized that not everyone is like an introvert who feels more energized not socailizing or not "doing what normal people do". I for one have found my sense of self and I love doing things by myself or sit by myself at lunch doing my own thing. Im also kinda awkward to socilize with cuzz Im intense and unhinged. Which im cool with cuzz thats what makes me unique. I have had people try to sit by me and I kinda give them a look and just dont talk with them barely and go to what I was doing, not becuase im an asshole but because I enjoy my peace and quite before I got back to work. Im also like this with family and friends. I enjoy all of them, but I sometimes just need my space and cant be around people 24/7 cuzz it burns me out and I like to do things on my own sometimes. I feel like ever since I was a teenager I was fround upon because I was "weird/different" due to my unique ability to be alone and just enjoy what i enjoy without others. I Enjoy my really close friends and like making new ones when the time is right. Im very careful with who im around now as well due to human nature just using people to get what you want. I know there are good and bad people. Iv now figured out that I just wanna surround myself with people that are deep thinkers, like weird things, are unhinged and just like to think outside of the box without being discouraged. Anyone else like this? You just like to think outside of the box and not be like everyone else? Where your around friends or family constantly, partying, or whatever. Instead you see people when you have the time and energy to see them. its like my one friend i see him like once every year cuzz he has a daughter now. but honestly when i see him its like i seen him yesterday and being around him is such a joy. Sorry for the long rant, wanted to have multiple things to discuss with you all (: