I post this here to know if anyone has felt like this 'cause it's confusing to me. I don't hate my friends, I've been there for them whenever they needed my help and had a good time just chilling. These past months I've been going through a rough time alone (it's my fault for not asking for help, etc. It's not the first time). For some reason, whenever I open the cursed Twitter, I feel irritated when I see any of my friends talking about mental health, healthy lifestyle, plans to go out or even some stupid memes and I really don't get why. We get along well and know I can't even look at a photograph of some of them without feeling angry. These weeks this is getting worse, my best friend asks me to go out, make a few plans counting me in and I wait till the end to tell "I can't". I'm hurting his feelings. Sometimes I feel the urge to explode, like a big ball of angriness but I don't like hurting people.